Lately, I’ve been feeling betwixt and between when it comes to my choices around work and family. Welcome to the party, right?

I think that most moms with school-age children struggle with the many hats they wear. Not just “doing” it all – but “being” it all.

There’s a part of me that is admittedly old-fashioned when it comes to my deep-rooted beliefs about marriage and motherhood.

I want to be home with my children baking apple pies and tending the backyard vegetable garden. 

But I also grew up watching T.V. shows like, Laverne & Shirley and Cagney & Lacey. All I need is a CB radio and a red sports car, and I’ll set the world on fire.

I can’t be the only one who carries around idealistic snapshots of myself – mental photos that don’t always jive with one another. 

I have a favorite one of me in the garden. My hair is pulled back in a twist, and I’m filling a bowl with snap-peas, while my children run circles around me in the yard.

Another image captures me busily typing away at my computer with a hot mug of coffee on my desk, while the phone rings steadily in the background – a long list of agents vying for my business.

The homemaker. The world-famous writer and business woman.

Ahhh .. to be both – and to be neither – at the same time. One day, perhaps it will all gel together.

But for now, I mix a little bit of “mommy” with a little bit of “professional” and call it a day.